![]() ![]() I always hated that question, because if I knew the answer I would have done something about it. Sometimes it takes a while to find the right one, but therapy is something I recommend to everyone – even if you are convinced your personal problems aren’t “bad enough.” Later on I began sessions with a new therapist. After maybe a year of seeing her, I discontinued our sessions. My first therapist helped at first, but she wasn’t the right fit for me. I was bullied enough as it was, I didn’t want to be made fun of for anything else. I told only my closest friends, and made sure they kept it a secret. Being a middle school aged girl, the thought of going to therapy was embarrassing. Eventually I was convinced to try therapy. It was one of the hardest things I’ve done, but it was beyond worth it. After that incident she seemed to worry about me a bit more.Įventually I decided it was time to tell my family I was depressed. She sat me down and questioned me, but I was much too afraid to be truthful. I drew grim images that usually portrayed something involving suicide or some sort of mental illness.Īnd one day my mom found the sketches. I received advice from friends to express my emotions through art. I continued this unhealthy habit until I reached a point in my depression where I experienced a constant rotation of having no emotions to being so sad and lonely that I became suicidal. I began self harming, convinced I deserved it. ![]() While going through this severe depression, I was too afraid to ask for help because I was convinced I was crazy and couldn’t be helped. (for a more in depth description, click here: ) Clinical depression is usually more severe and involves a chemical imbalance in the brain. Situational depression is a short term depression caused by trauma or life changes. There isn’t a direct reason for depression.Having any mental illness does not make you weak.Having depression does not make you weak.It does, though, have medications available to help with symptoms OF depression. Depression, like other mental illnesses, doesn’t have a cure.Depression is a disease, more intense than sadness, and is diagnosable. Having depression does not always mean you’re sad or want to die all the time.Or, the same symptoms may be experienced differently per person. There are many different symptoms and not all of them may be experienced. It is often thought everyone experiences depression the same, which is entirely untrue.Some misconceptions about Depression and the truth behind it: Always feeling tired and having little energy or motivation.Little to no interest in things I used to love.Feeling down and hopeless most of the time.Difficulty falling asleep/staying asleep.In 7th and 8th grade I experienced extremes of the following symptoms of depression: I didn’t think I would ever be able to speak aloud about the things I had experienced. I even went on anonymous sites where I could connect with online therapists. I reached out to friends in search of someone who knew how to handle these things. I didn’t know what to do with this information for a long time. I knew they weren’t always accurate, but I later found them to be almost the exact same as the ones my dr.s would give me in the future. I discovered this through dozens of online tests and screenings. I researched relentlessly and discovered (about the same time) that I also had severe depression. It wasn’t until I was in middle school when I learned what social anxiety disorder was. For many years, these symptoms were entirely out of my control. No matter how many times I spoke in front of my peers in school, my throat would close, I would tremble uncontrollably, my face would burn, my eyes would water, and in my younger years- I would sometimes cry if it was bad enough. And no, facing my fears did not get rid of them. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to do these things, I physically could not bring myself to do them. Virtually Any situation in which i could make a mistake.Speaking in groups of people larger than 2 or 3.A couple of specific situations that were more than difficult for me included: Social anxiety disorder is an illness in which social situations may create abnormal amounts of anxiety/stress. A common misconception is that this disorder is just an excuse for being shy. My social anxiety disorder developed about this time. Around first grade, my thoughts became tainted with worry as well as an intense fear of judgement. I can hardly remember life before my anxiety began to develop – for those who have never experienced mental illness, it is common for those with mental illnesses to forget what it is like to live without them. I am simply sharing my experiences in hope to help anyone struggling with similar problems as I have had. ![]()
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